To carry you in my body
To feel your first fluttery kicks in my belly
To feel that rib cage kick and eventual roll over inside me
To labor with you, fighting to get you turned the right way
To hear your first cry and breath of air
To see the tears in your dad's eyes
To feel your warmth against my skin, crying out in victory
To connect with you eye to eye for the first time, realizing the miracle God has been up to
To sustain you with my body
To see the past, present and future in another person's face
To be your mom.
To be trusted to raise you
To teach you about the world and your Heavenly Father who created you
To find joy in all the forgotten things:
The birds that chirp
The dogs barking
The wind rustling through the trees
How water falls and splashes
The way sugar tastes, igniting a smile across your tiny face
The way fingers and hands move things
The way legs, toes and feet carry you to new places
How sound can breathe life into your soul and colors bring twinkle to your eyes
The beautiful difference in each and every person and
How life brings abundant joy and humility to all who encounter it.
A year ago, life changed.
A year ago, you were born
And I was reborn with you.